At two am this morning Michellie woke with intense stomache cramps. Having experienced a similar episode on Friday, I was downstairs for the charcoal tablets and some applesauce (the only way to get capsules down still). After about 30 minutes the body relaxed and Michellie finally fell back to sleep for the rest of the night. It appears we may have picked up our first bug while socializing this weekend. Today Michellie has struggled for energy and has spent most of the day relaxing, reading and finishing some homework. I dropped off her assignments and some Garbanzo Bean Chocolate Cake and German Chocolate Cake for the Foods teachers to enjoy. We had a little Oprah marathon too after Dad left for Halifax. He is picking up Kenzie at 7 am tomorrow.
As I was reflecting on what to write about today, I started going back through some of my notes. I have many, many notes about the hospital, her treatments, balances I did on Michellie, questions, etc. It is really so much a blur now. What stopped me for several moments and had me reflecting was a balance that I had done on Michellie Feb 26th. This was part of the third round of chemo, and was a really tough time for Michellie. I am going to tell you a bit about this balance, as it may help others reflect on their own thought patterns, and perhaps open up some ideas of new ways of thinking about situations and change. I was using a technique called Emotion Freedom Technique or EFT. I have used it a lot to tap out several spots on the body, as well as reprogram patterns in the hemispheres, and how these patterns interact with each other. This technique is very successful with addictions, allergies, depression, illness, anxiety, study and exam anxiety and more. I have added a few tweaks to the technique as a result of some learning with Carol Look who does Pattern Interrupting, and Changing Energy Patterns. I am writing the affirmation phrases that came to mind while working with Michellie. Again, I write this for others who might be looking for something specific to help them.
At the start of the technique I imagined scraping off the cells left in the chest that were holding on to the cancerous cells. I incinerated them. This left the space vulnerable and empty so I added some light and love with the affirmations for Michellie of : "Despite the vulnerability of this space - I love and accept myself." This was followed by the following: "The cells in my body are healed and strong. My body is a healing body. I move forward into my future with strength. Love eminates from every pore in my body. I am excited for my future." When I got to the hand taps, the affirmations continued to flow: "My body is a health machine. I am ready for my future. I have released my past. I forgive the cells that were holding onto my past. I am eager to explore the possibilities of my future. I go forward with happiness and security. My body sees clearly the health it possesses. I am one with the Universe and the Divine." With the Kundulini energy spiral I added "I am strong", with the Matrix energy I added " I am healed", with the Meridian flow I added "I am balanced, with the Infinity energy I added "I am free". I finished with "I am complete and robust. Fear does not register around the word cancer. The cells in the center of my chest are new, light, they are soft, they are precious, they are health, they are from the Divine, they are strength, they are light, they are love."
Namasthe everyone.
